June 5, 2008

A New Day & New Outlook!

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It amazes me how easily one day it is to feel defeated and the next to feel so much differnt. The world seems to make a little more sense and the problems of yesterday are seen as so tragic. In the light of how God is working His plan comes a little more in focus. ‘

Days that seem rough followed by good days makes me think of those who check out of this world into eternity b/c they feel that tomorrow won’t be any different. Sometimes tomorrow isn’t different it is simply God changes us instead of changes our situation.

Satan would love for us to believe that we are a lost cause and that tomorrow won’t be any better than today and yesterday were. My heart breaks at those who are contemplating those thoughts. I was one who thought those thoughts and even followed through and listened to the lies of Satan. That life is better without me. That I am always going to feel this pain and this misery that I can’t shake. So I listened to myself and attempted to take my own life.

I don’t know why God spared my life b/c it surely isn’t any more valuable than anyone elses. I am thankful for the days that I can look back and see how God has changed me and used these dark days to show me His love that is unconditional.

I am thankful that I am able to relate to and pray for those who are hurting and feel their world is spinning out of control. God loves you and cares for you. He wants you to hear Him calling you to Himself. Ask God to show Himself to you and to help you through these dark days. And then look for Him.


June 4, 2008


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Today has been a tough day for me. In general while being here, I have felt okay with our roomates and the other families living around us. This week has been quite different. I have felt singled out as the one who gets a little drug through the mud or made an example of. I feel as if they listen and wait for me to say something and then twinge at my words. I feel that they are taken in a way that isn’t what I was trying to say. We are suppose to be drawing closer in our groups but I feel that I am closing up.

I loved how at home people loved and understood us. My words were understood and their meaning was comprehended. I can’t imagine when we move out of the country how much I will miss being understood and loved for who I am in the Lord, not for what I am not yet.

I thank God for these hard days because He is gracious enough to work on me bit by bit. Piece by piece. Molding all the while continously reshaping me into the creation He desires me to be. My part is to sit on the potter’s wheel and to not jump off while He fashions me. It is so easy for me to jump of into my feelings and partake in sinful acts instead of bringing Him glory. Oh Lord keep me back from sin.

June 3, 2008

All tongues shall confess…

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Romans 14: 11 “…every knee shall bow to Me, and every tongue shall confess to God.”

How beautiful it has been to hear the tongues confessing that Christ is Lord! Being around other believers from different places all around the world has been an extreme blessing to me. Hearing them pray to God in their heart language has touched me and opened me to see things I hadn’t seen before.

We were going around the room praying and a woman from Spain began praying. She started off by saying in Spanish- I love you Lord… she paused… and preceded to speak in words I couldn’t understand but I was moved to tears. Her slowness and the sincerity were teaching me how to pray.

Today, as I sat in a meeting with three different  other nationalities besides American again I was moved. Listening to prayers being lifted up in Korean. Last night we had an African Worship and the custom was to pray all at the same time. How awesome that the God of the universe understands us all uniquely and knows us intimately. I am amazed at how beautiful we are made and the simple prayers of other believers point me closer to Him and increase my desire to know Him more intimately.

What a great God we (all nations, tribes, and tongues) serve!