June 5, 2008

A New Day & New Outlook!

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It amazes me how easily one day it is to feel defeated and the next to feel so much differnt. The world seems to make a little more sense and the problems of yesterday are seen as so tragic. In the light of how God is working His plan comes a little more in focus. ‘

Days that seem rough followed by good days makes me think of those who check out of this world into eternity b/c they feel that tomorrow won’t be any different. Sometimes tomorrow isn’t different it is simply God changes us instead of changes our situation.

Satan would love for us to believe that we are a lost cause and that tomorrow won’t be any better than today and yesterday were. My heart breaks at those who are contemplating those thoughts. I was one who thought those thoughts and even followed through and listened to the lies of Satan. That life is better without me. That I am always going to feel this pain and this misery that I can’t shake. So I listened to myself and attempted to take my own life.

I don’t know why God spared my life b/c it surely isn’t any more valuable than anyone elses. I am thankful for the days that I can look back and see how God has changed me and used these dark days to show me His love that is unconditional.

I am thankful that I am able to relate to and pray for those who are hurting and feel their world is spinning out of control. God loves you and cares for you. He wants you to hear Him calling you to Himself. Ask God to show Himself to you and to help you through these dark days. And then look for Him.


June 4, 2008


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Today has been a tough day for me. In general while being here, I have felt okay with our roomates and the other families living around us. This week has been quite different. I have felt singled out as the one who gets a little drug through the mud or made an example of. I feel as if they listen and wait for me to say something and then twinge at my words. I feel that they are taken in a way that isn’t what I was trying to say. We are suppose to be drawing closer in our groups but I feel that I am closing up.

I loved how at home people loved and understood us. My words were understood and their meaning was comprehended. I can’t imagine when we move out of the country how much I will miss being understood and loved for who I am in the Lord, not for what I am not yet.

I thank God for these hard days because He is gracious enough to work on me bit by bit. Piece by piece. Molding all the while continously reshaping me into the creation He desires me to be. My part is to sit on the potter’s wheel and to not jump off while He fashions me. It is so easy for me to jump of into my feelings and partake in sinful acts instead of bringing Him glory. Oh Lord keep me back from sin.

June 3, 2008

All tongues shall confess…

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Romans 14: 11 “…every knee shall bow to Me, and every tongue shall confess to God.”

How beautiful it has been to hear the tongues confessing that Christ is Lord! Being around other believers from different places all around the world has been an extreme blessing to me. Hearing them pray to God in their heart language has touched me and opened me to see things I hadn’t seen before.

We were going around the room praying and a woman from Spain began praying. She started off by saying in Spanish- I love you Lord… she paused… and preceded to speak in words I couldn’t understand but I was moved to tears. Her slowness and the sincerity were teaching me how to pray.

Today, as I sat in a meeting with three different  other nationalities besides American again I was moved. Listening to prayers being lifted up in Korean. Last night we had an African Worship and the custom was to pray all at the same time. How awesome that the God of the universe understands us all uniquely and knows us intimately. I am amazed at how beautiful we are made and the simple prayers of other believers point me closer to Him and increase my desire to know Him more intimately.

What a great God we (all nations, tribes, and tongues) serve!

December 3, 2007


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I give up all my own desires and hopes, and accept Thy will for my life. I give myself, my time, my all utterly to Thee to be Thine forever. Fill me and seal me with Thy Holy Spirit. Use me as Thou wilt, send me where Thou wilt, work out Thy whole will in my life at any cost, now and forever.

A prayer by Betty Scott Stan who lost her life along with her husband in China by decaptation in December 1934.


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One of the toughest parts of being a Christian and walking with God isn’t learning what we are to do; rather it is doing what we have learned. Obedience is the next crucial step.  As we begin to follow and learn we must put it into practice.  We are told in James 1:22 “But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.”  One of my favorite Bible stories growing up was the story of Joshua and the Battle at Jericho. Here we will see his obedience despite how things seemed illogical.   God had led the Israelites, His chosen people, out of slavery in Egypt.  He was leading them to the Promised Land, where there would be plenty for them. Yet, they sinned and their punishment was to wonder in the desert for forty years.  After Moses died, God appointed a new leader, Joshua.  Joshua was told by God to lead the Israelites across the Jordan River.  He immediately was obedient and followed the commands.  He had crossed over the Red Sea with Moses as they left Egypt, so he knew that God could dry up the water and land so the people could cross.  That is where we will begin our reading at. 

Joshua 6                                                                                                                                              

1 Now Jericho was shut up inside and outside because of the people of Israel. None went out, and none came in. 2 And the Lord said to Joshua, See, I have given Jericho into your hand, with its king and mighty men of valor. 3 You shall march around the city, all the men of war going around the city once. Thus shall you do for six days. 4 Seven priests shall bear seven trumpets of rams’ horns before the ark. On the seventh day you shall march around the city seven times, and the priests shall blow the trumpets. 5 And when they make a long blast with the ram’s horn, when you hear the sound of the trumpet, then all the people shall shout with a great shout, and the wall of the city will fall down flat, and the people shall go up, everyone straight before him.

 The city of Jericho was a fortified city with walls surrounding the city.  It is reported that the walls may have been up to 25 feet high and 20 feet thick.[1] God told them that despite how things appeared He was going to deliver Jericho to them through unusual means.  All that they had to  do was walk once around the perimeter for six days walk and on the seventh day blow the trumpets and shout, then the walls (remember how thick those walls were) would fall down and they’d go in and conquer the city.   

6 So Joshua the son of Nun called the priests and said to them, Take up the ark of the covenant and let seven priests bear seven trumpets of rams’ horns before the ark of the Lord. 7 And he said to the people, Go forward. March around the city and let the armed men pass on before the ark of the Lord. 8 And just as Joshua had commanded the people, the seven priests bearing the seven trumpets of rams’ horns before the Lord went forward, blowing the trumpets, with the ark of the covenant of the Lord following them. 9 The armed men were walking before the priests who were blowing the trumpets, and the rear guard was walking after the ark, while the trumpets blew continually. 10 But Joshua commanded the people, You shall not shout or make your voice heard, neither shall any word go out of your mouth, until the day I tell you to shout. Then you shall shout. 11 So he caused the ark of the Lord to circle the city, going about it once. And they came into the camp and spent the night in the camp. 12 Then Joshua rose early in the morning, and the priests took up the ark of the Lord. 13 And the seven priests bearing the seven trumpets of rams’ horns before the ark of the Lord walked on, and they blew the trumpets continually. And the armed men were walking before them, and the rear guard was walking after the ark of the Lord, while the trumpets blew continually. 14 And the second day they marched around the city once, and returned into the camp. So they did for six days. 15 On the seventh day they rose early, at the dawn of day, and marched around the city in the same manner seven times. It was only on that day that they marched around the city seven times. 16 And at the seventh time, when the priests had blown the trumpets, Joshua said to the people, Shout, for the Lord has given you the city. 

Joshua was obedient to God commands. He didn’t reason, nor did he pick and choose which part he would do. He was fully obedient to God. Are you being obedient in the area’s God has commanded you? We all have areas we need to work in.   

17 And the city and all that is within it shall be devoted to the Lord for destruction. Only Rahab the prostitute and all who are with her in her house shall live, because she hid the messengers whom we sent. 18 But you, keep yourselves from the things devoted to destruction, lest when you have devoted them you take any of the devoted things and make the camp of Israel a thing for destruction and bring trouble upon it. 19 But all silver and gold, and every vessel of bronze and iron, are holy to the Lord; they shall go into the treasury of the Lord. 20 So the people shouted, and the trumpets were blown. As soon as the people heard the sound of the trumpet, the people shouted a great shout, and the wall fell down flat, so that the people went up into the city, every man straight before him, and they captured the city. 21 Then they devoted all in the city to destruction, both men and women, young and old, oxen, sheep, and donkeys, with the edge of the sword. 22 But to the two men who had spied out the land, Joshua said, Go into the prostitute’s house and bring out from there the woman and all who belong to her, as you swore to her. 23 So the young men who had been spies went in and brought out Rahab and her father and mother and brothers and all who belonged to her. And they brought all her relatives and put them outside the camp of Israel. 24 And they burned the city with fire, and everything in it. Only the silver and gold, and the vessels of bronze and of iron, they put into the treasury of the house of the Lord. 25 But Rahab the prostitute and her father’s household and all who belonged to her, Joshua saved alive. And she has lived in Israel to this day, because she hid the messengers whom Joshua sent to spy out Jericho. 26 Joshua laid an oath on them at that time, saying, Cursed before the Lord be the man who rises up and rebuilds this city, Jericho. At the cost of his firstborn shall he lay its foundation, and at the cost of his youngest son shall he set up its gates. 27 So the Lord was with Joshua, and his fame was in all the land. 

So they did as the Lord commanded.  They overtook the city; God’s fame went through out the land.   Remember if God has told you to be obedient then you are able to do it. God doesn’t command us to do things we aren’t able to do. He doesn’t give us things so we can fail. As Joshua was obedient by faith he was able to see God’s power. We need that same faith to do the big and small things. The closer we walk with Him the more we will see His power in our lives.

[1] Life Application Study Bible, New King James Version, Tyndale House Publishers 1993, p.344